Having a time for oneself

Please have time for yourselves....



When I think of my life, I have not treated myself well.

How I can do for other if I cannot support myself.

I have neglected myself, and in return, I am having hard time to hear and listen to my heart.

I do not know what I want to do, what I want to study, and what I like and dislike.

I lost myself.

I use my time for outside not inside of myself.

How empty I am.

Now, it is time for me to have myself and notice who I really am.

I have to re-back myself to this world.

Please my friends.....have time and take a good care for yourselves.

Otherwise, you will lose yourselves like me and realize nothing left on you.

Peaceful moment.

The societies become violent.

Have you watched a movie called "GATE"?

It is a documentary movie about nucler wepons.

In this film, one of peace-makers states, "War comes from our heart. What can we do as an individual?" He suggests that having a peaceful mind (heart) starts to brake wars and violence.

Please have a peaceful time in your lives.

Please enjoy the moment we have (I know sometimes it is hard to do, like I feel.).

Please love each other and be playful, like Shiro and Mana.

Life and Death

What is life?
What is death?

Why we die suddenly as if it was meant to be happened?
Why life comes up as if it was meant to be?


In 2010, I experienced and encounterd two big events: the death of Shiro and the lady who I used to take care for about 3 months.

This year will be a shifting year for me.
This year will be my turning point.
This year will be transforming year for us (my family).




These two events made me think what are life and death.

It is not easy to find answers.




Many people have helped me a lot through the processes of these big events.

Mahalo nui loa (thank you very much).




I start to think the meaning of my life.

One of monks I met taught us that things have reasons and results.
I believe that this phrase has many deep meanings.

Two Ka La story

He is Ka La. It means the Sun.

My father adapted him at the Human Society in Ke'au where it is about 15 min. from Hilo.
The Human Society is a place to take care of non-home dogs, cats and other animals to find good new homes.

Ka La escaped from our house......
I loved him, but my father seemed not to like him.
Ka La was a little rascal, which why I liked him.

He was partly abused by my father.
I wanted to help him out. I could not be with him 24 hours everyday......

I understand why he ran way.... It made me deeply sad.

I hope he is happy and found a good family.


He is our second Ka La.

My father named him as Ka La. I believe that my father regretted our previous Ka La that was gone from our sight.

My father seems to like to take care of dogs. He actually has a good warm heart.
He was too much pressure from school and stress from being in abroad.

I could not heal him enough.
That sad story with previous Ka La might be made from me.





This second Ka La has an old soul even though he is less than 1 year old.
He is really calm, humble, gentle, shy, and patient.

He has a beautiful skin color (an expensive yummy chocolate color, I call) and beautiful yellow eyes.


My father found and brought him home with his sister, Mahina, which means the Moon.




After things went calm, my father decided to find a good home for Ka La.

I was keeping suggesting him to reduce dogs.
In my view, it was difficult for him to take good care of dogs at home.
When our dogs bark, we bother everyone in the neighborhood....
We had many other big problems of having dogs here.


Therefore, I was glad that my father was willing to let Ka La move to a better environment.

We found a home for him. However, he came back after Shiro died.

Ka la was sick and seemed to have stress. He is a delicate boy.
It is good to have him at home again.

He seems to do well. I hope we can treat his sickness.


I have many difficulties with my father regarding dogs.
We have different views.

I do what I can do.
I pray for my father and our 'ohana (dogs and chickens) to all be happy.
I help others to bring us happiness.

Those are my ways to apologize and thank our all dogs, people, things that I have met.

Shiro moved to another world....3

I like this photo very much.

Shiro taught me that it is good to have warm and loving smiles on faces to light up people's hearts.


His smile was gifted.



(Shiro and Mana that is his sister, Mahina)

My father loves Mana, so he wanted to keep her at home.

However, when I tried to take Shiro and Mana to the beach by a track, I lost her on the highway.....

I tied them with leashes in back of the track (which was outside not inside).

When I realized that she was gone, Shiro and I walked along the highway to find her.
We could not find her....

I regreted myself that why I did this....

I hope she was saved by a good family....



Dear Mana:

I am sorry that I lost Shiro, too.

I hope he is with you....

Shiro moved to another world....2

Shiro always gave me big smiles!

He likes to be taken photos? He really has a nice smile that makes people, especially me, happy.

When he was a little boy like this photo, I put him dresses.
Shiro and my father were having boy's talk??

When I was tired or upset, his smiles made my heart warm.

He seemed to be tired for playing a lot. (This photo was also taken when he was a little boy.)

Shiro.....Mahalo nui loa for coming to our house.

I have many memories with him.

If I think of his past life with us, it made me cry.

I always felt sorry to him because I could not help him much.

I did not have energy, power and money to give him more happiness.

He was usually tied with a short leash. The time when he could run freely was when we took him walk at a park.

I believe that he had sad, scary, tired and angry days. However, he was always smiling at me when we saw each other.

For 4 months, I have been out of my father's house.

I came to visit them as much as I could make my time.

I could not take him walk every day.

Shiro......I really love him.

Whenever and wherever I remember of him, he is always smiling in my heart.

Mahalo Shiro......

I hope he is peaceful....

Shiro moved to another world....1

These photos were taken when Shiro was less than 3 months old.

Smelling something good, Shiro??

Sleeping on the girl's arms....ZZZZZZZ

My father and I were at Hawaii Community College to try to sell five puppies (his brothers and sister).

Shiro was one of them.

We could not sell him. He was meant to be with us!

Shiro is talking with an owl that my brother gave for my father?

Walking happily in our yard.....

Why was it happen to Shiro....?

Shiro passed away on 5/3, 2010.

He was 1 year old when a car hit him.....

He died on the road in front of our house.